Lie To Me

I've read in many places that the one person we lie to most of the time is ourselves. Hands down guilty. For example, I love writing (it's not the writing I love, but the enjoyment I get from interacting with others). One of the most glorified class of writers are the novelists (IMO). The excellent ones become immortal. Put together my passion for writing and reading (two sides of the same coin), I think myself as a budding novelist.

Ha! BS.

I dislike reading novels and struggle to finish more than half of them. I dislike making up the fluff that fills the pages of novels - it feels like I am writing a story for a kid. Okay, I am being a little too hard, but this is a practice in honesty. I do like writing, but lean more toward the side of reality-based content. I have books on grammar, small business, martial arts, spirituality, religion, how-to-books, and the list goes on. The minority of my books are probably novels.

I've taken this idea and have faced the truth on a few things.

• A job jus' ain't gonna get you rich, hoss. I think we all accept that.
• Going in to business for oneself is a risk and scares the shit out of you. Yup, it is scary.
• Just as much as the $$$, you want to party like a rockstar.

I'm gonna take a crack at that last one. It's not really the money I want, but what it could do...what it could buy...what I won't have to do anymore, if I had enough of it. Lifestyle. I think I've been looking at the problem from the wrong end. In the game of poker, the correct method of play is not to worry about the money, but just play every hand correctly. No matter what happens, just keep playing correctly: the money will follow! Same thing here, I gather. Keep making the right decisions and right actions, get out of the comfort zone and the money will have to follow.

The puzzle has a lot of pieces. This is one small piece that I've corrected. I'm not going to go an fix every defficiency I have, but I have changed some that I feel live at the base. I'm not going to sit here and lie to myself and say I want to be a perfect person. I would like to be, but I know that just is not possible (and I didn't say it's not something to work toward). The truth can be difficult, but without it things just become impossible.